Alhamdulillah...
I got my 1 day (to be precise around 8hrs ;)) doing nothing!
Ok fine.. I did some housecore in the morning... But just for a while since i promise myself thay today is my rest day! My doing nothing day!
No work, a BIG no to work... Just watch tv... Lay in front of tv... Absolutely nothing.... (Except of course ibadah2).....
My princess have creative class today... My hero went to his nenek house... And i'm alone in the house... :) :) :)
And u know what? I gained my energy back! I gained my spirit back to perform compulsory things (at least in my have-to-do list)...
For a while... I feel that i lost it... Since i back from "cruising"... I felt like i have no absolute rest since came back... I keep on ungkit that i still have no rest...
And now, inshaAllah... I will be back to my original pace :)
I lost gear for about a month.... Thank you Allah for giving my spirit back :)
Hope this will keep on continue... (Maybe not so applicable to my work life... Since its keep on going like a sinuisodal wave ... ;p)
121214:0148
*Posted using BlogPress
Dedicated special to...
My dearest Sarah Najlaa....
Next year we will be apart... Maybe jumpe 2hr semgu... Or worst sehari seminggu... Awak akan berada di bangi, adik2 awak akan bersama ibu di kertih...
Really hurt my heart...
But that was the best decision i need to take untuk kepentingan awak tau sarah...
Ibu terpaksa ambil keputusan ni sebab nak elak awak selalu kena ponteng sekolah...
Mungkin itula hikmah awak dapat prasekolah masa 2014... Macam mana awak terpaksa banyak ponteng sekolah sebab ikut ibu kehulu hilir... Banyak benda yang awak tertinggal... Awak kena re-sit exam sebab selalu tak datang sekolah... Dan result awak pun tak berapa jua, itu pun ibu rasa disebabkan kelas yang awak banyak tak datang...
Ibu minta maaf ye sayang...
Ibu tak dapat manjakan awak lg waktu tengah hari macam selalu... Tak dapat belanja hotdog/nuget/jelly kelapa.... Tak dapatkan suapkan awak....
Mungkin tahun depan awak akan lebih manja dengan atuk dan uwan.... Mungkin ibu yang akan jealous...
Tapi ibu terpaksa juga demi kebaikan awak...
Tadi ibu cuba cakap sendiri dengan awak (kalau awak ingat lagi la masa awak baca blog ni ;))... Tapi malangnya air mata yang lebih... Maka ibu tak dapat nak cerita panjang... Awak kata awak faham... Dan awak offer ibu tisu ;)
I'm gonna miss you darling... Seriously....
#pray4mytransfer
*Posted using BlogPress
Next year we will be apart... Maybe jumpe 2hr semgu... Or worst sehari seminggu... Awak akan berada di bangi, adik2 awak akan bersama ibu di kertih...
Really hurt my heart...
But that was the best decision i need to take untuk kepentingan awak tau sarah...
Ibu terpaksa ambil keputusan ni sebab nak elak awak selalu kena ponteng sekolah...
Mungkin itula hikmah awak dapat prasekolah masa 2014... Macam mana awak terpaksa banyak ponteng sekolah sebab ikut ibu kehulu hilir... Banyak benda yang awak tertinggal... Awak kena re-sit exam sebab selalu tak datang sekolah... Dan result awak pun tak berapa jua, itu pun ibu rasa disebabkan kelas yang awak banyak tak datang...
Ibu minta maaf ye sayang...
Ibu tak dapat manjakan awak lg waktu tengah hari macam selalu... Tak dapat belanja hotdog/nuget/jelly kelapa.... Tak dapatkan suapkan awak....
Mungkin tahun depan awak akan lebih manja dengan atuk dan uwan.... Mungkin ibu yang akan jealous...
Tapi ibu terpaksa juga demi kebaikan awak...
Tadi ibu cuba cakap sendiri dengan awak (kalau awak ingat lagi la masa awak baca blog ni ;))... Tapi malangnya air mata yang lebih... Maka ibu tak dapat nak cerita panjang... Awak kata awak faham... Dan awak offer ibu tisu ;)
I'm gonna miss you darling... Seriously....
#pray4mytransfer
*Posted using BlogPress
Salam Maal Hijrah - 1436
2nd public holiday i'm alone at kertih....
But goodnew is... Cable complet spooling..
Esok pg, test cable #pray4kabelkusayang
Harap2 semua bjalan lancar...........
Amiinnnnnn
24/10/2014
*Posted using BlogPress
But goodnew is... Cable complet spooling..
Esok pg, test cable #pray4kabelkusayang
Harap2 semua bjalan lancar...........
Amiinnnnnn
24/10/2014
*Posted using BlogPress
Happy diwali!211014
-Tapi nk nyanyi lagu Dendang Perantau......
-pada sape yg xtahu... Aku skrg tgh mode standby nak ke laut.. Uruskan keje #pray4kabelkusayang...
-am alone at kertih. Seriously, alone! And esok adelah public holiday... Deepavali!
-kwn aku tanye nape xbalik, memandangkan keje aku ni, mcm lg 2-3 bari kapal gerak...
-aku jwb...kalo aku balik.. Mmg aku xkan dh naik ke laut... Sbbnye...:
-nape aku nak naik laut gak? Lebih kpd kepuasan bekerja... Dan jugak nak dpt "UL" hahahaha.... Keje kabel ni adalah plg mcabar spjg kerjaya aku 8thn ni.... Sbb tu aku mmg nak tgok sgl bnd yg blaku kat kabelkusyg ni....
-2tahun ok! Aku ngadap segala dugaan yg tidak dijangka... Hanya Allah mengetahui segala2nya...
-tapi tula... Tabahla wahai hati... Fahamla wahai ES ku syg.. Terimalah kerjaya ibumu ni wahai anak2.... Restuilah setiap tindaktandukku wahai makpak ku...
-sedihnye hati ini bile dgr ayat2 syahdu anak2ku.... Tppppp... Aku kena jadi ibu yg cool.. Dorg xleh tau aku sedih, nangis.... Aku nk jd mcm emak.. Sgt tenang bile aku crite mslh2 aku pd mak... Tapii... Hati emak pd ms tu.. hanya Allah yg tahu...
Ya allah..... Permudahkanlah segala pemasangan dan ujian projek ku ini.... Bantulah aku untuk pastikan projek ini bjalan lancar dgn selamat.... Amiiinnnn
#pray4kabelkusayang
*Posted using BlogPress
-pada sape yg xtahu... Aku skrg tgh mode standby nak ke laut.. Uruskan keje #pray4kabelkusayang...
-am alone at kertih. Seriously, alone! And esok adelah public holiday... Deepavali!
-kwn aku tanye nape xbalik, memandangkan keje aku ni, mcm lg 2-3 bari kapal gerak...
-aku jwb...kalo aku balik.. Mmg aku xkan dh naik ke laut... Sbbnye...:
-nape aku nak naik laut gak? Lebih kpd kepuasan bekerja... Dan jugak nak dpt "UL" hahahaha.... Keje kabel ni adalah plg mcabar spjg kerjaya aku 8thn ni.... Sbb tu aku mmg nak tgok sgl bnd yg blaku kat kabelkusyg ni....
-2tahun ok! Aku ngadap segala dugaan yg tidak dijangka... Hanya Allah mengetahui segala2nya...
-tapi tula... Tabahla wahai hati... Fahamla wahai ES ku syg.. Terimalah kerjaya ibumu ni wahai anak2.... Restuilah setiap tindaktandukku wahai makpak ku...
-sedihnye hati ini bile dgr ayat2 syahdu anak2ku.... Tppppp... Aku kena jadi ibu yg cool.. Dorg xleh tau aku sedih, nangis.... Aku nk jd mcm emak.. Sgt tenang bile aku crite mslh2 aku pd mak... Tapii... Hati emak pd ms tu.. hanya Allah yg tahu...
Ya allah..... Permudahkanlah segala pemasangan dan ujian projek ku ini.... Bantulah aku untuk pastikan projek ini bjalan lancar dgn selamat.... Amiiinnnn
#pray4kabelkusayang
*Posted using BlogPress
2nd day
Dlu ms awal2 ES kna tgal sorg... Die selalu ngadu xleh tido...
Dan aku selalu gelak dn perli "laaa.. Tido jelaaa"
Sbb aku pikir.... Dah mmg tgal sorg, nak buat ape pg kan....
And nowwwww.... Aku sgt memahami perasaan itu...
4.00am.... And aku still xleh nak lelap... Smlm lelap pun dlm time2 ni gak...
Ermm.... Miss them badly...
-201014-
*Posted using BlogPress
Dan aku selalu gelak dn perli "laaa.. Tido jelaaa"
Sbb aku pikir.... Dah mmg tgal sorg, nak buat ape pg kan....
And nowwwww.... Aku sgt memahami perasaan itu...
4.00am.... And aku still xleh nak lelap... Smlm lelap pun dlm time2 ni gak...
Ermm.... Miss them badly...
-201014-
*Posted using BlogPress
191014- first day
Ye, malam ini rumah saye tidak bersepah dengan permainan.... Saya dh kemas dn tetap terusun rapi slps bbrp jam... Tetapi sy bosan....
I have never leave alone in this house since i had my first baby which wAs 6 years ago.... Except for sometimes lunch time and ermm "ngulor" time 😁😁... But not ever during night time... Never in 6 years... There will always at least one of my babies will be with me....
But now... I'm all alonee....
Saya patut berasa bersyukur bukan? Sbb this is my-time. Tapiiii.... Perasaan spt hilang arah tuju serta objektif kehidupan...
(Selain objektif mendapat keredhaan ilahi... Ni adalah wajib ye)
Mcm rase Rutin harian berubah dlm sekelip mata...
Mcm rase "ok dh kemas, pastu?"
Mcm rase "ape lg nak buat ye?"
Saya dh lame tak ase perasaan hidup untuk diri sendiri....... Maka sy speti hilang arahh...
Tolongla cepat projek sy bejalan dgn jayanya....Spy sy tak rase spt dendanh perantau sgttt
#pray4kabelkusayang
*Posted using BlogPress
I have never leave alone in this house since i had my first baby which wAs 6 years ago.... Except for sometimes lunch time and ermm "ngulor" time 😁😁... But not ever during night time... Never in 6 years... There will always at least one of my babies will be with me....
But now... I'm all alonee....
Saya patut berasa bersyukur bukan? Sbb this is my-time. Tapiiii.... Perasaan spt hilang arah tuju serta objektif kehidupan...
(Selain objektif mendapat keredhaan ilahi... Ni adalah wajib ye)
Mcm rase Rutin harian berubah dlm sekelip mata...
Mcm rase "ok dh kemas, pastu?"
Mcm rase "ape lg nak buat ye?"
Saya dh lame tak ase perasaan hidup untuk diri sendiri....... Maka sy speti hilang arahh...
Tolongla cepat projek sy bejalan dgn jayanya....Spy sy tak rase spt dendanh perantau sgttt
#pray4kabelkusayang
*Posted using BlogPress
Temporary 31st present...
It should be the greatest present for my 31 y.o birthday...
But.... The next two days.... You were gone baby.... :(
Turn out on 4th aug afternoon, i'd bleeding... Non stop bleeding... Likes period...
5th - went to KMC... Failed to meet dr suraya as she had been in OT until..not sure... Cause had to be in Kertih at 5 for my children... So i went back at 4
6th - went to KMC again... Meet dr suraya at 10.30..... Briefed her... Scanned... And she said... "Look likes there is nothing... No sac... Luar rahim pun tiada apa2... " so.... Amek darah (starting of my decreasing number of blood ;p)..
See her back at 12... The result: my hcg is 200++... So i am pregnant!but i'd still bleeding!!!
Confuseeeeedddd...
Next thing was... Another blood sample... In another 2 days....
7th - worked as usual.... Drived back to bangi...
*still hoping for good news....but....terimajugekalaubukanrezeki....
8th - went to Annur.... Brief dr fatimah.... Scanned.... And blood sample.... The best thing was.... MC for 7 days!!!! Hoyeay!! No training!!! Another yeaayy!!!
*still bleeding like period...
11th - result hcg: 140 (still high).... Should be less than 1...
Dr fatimah said... "Hcg berkurangan.... My advice is kite buat DNC"
Saye.... Atr redha dan pasrah menerima dgn tenang.... Sbb mmg dh agak sbb still bleeding....
"But let me scan you first.. Hcg still tinggi means maybe ade clogging.."
Scanned.......
"Looks clean.... Sy xnmpk clogging.... I dont want to go for dnc... Amek darah ok?"
Saya? Mestila saya yang menurut perintah... Lgpun... Of course happy dont have to go for dnc! :)
So another blood been taken....
But still.... Googled about aborted without dnc.... Some people experience about the same and alhamdulillah.. Everything seems fine...
To Cut story short....
13th.... Hcg: 40
18th... Hcg: 4
26th... Hcg: as below.....
So... On 29th... Meet dr fatimah again... Show her the result.... She smiled and said "alhamdulillah...... Pentingnye monitor hcg ni sbb kalo still tinggi after weeks, another check up kena buat... Might be ade perkara lain plak" nauzubillah...
"Ok.. Alhamdulliah.. So xperlu jumpa saya lagi lepas ni"
Me: eh..kena jumpe doktor untuk yg ke empat plak :p
:))
Saya menerima segalanya... Mungkin bukn rezeki.. Mungkin juga kami diberi peluang spy duduk bersama dlu... (Kan skrg sorg bangi, 4 org kertih...) ye kami masih berjauhan... Dh masuk 9 bulan 😔😔😔😔
-Posted using BlogPress from my iPad
But.... The next two days.... You were gone baby.... :(
Turn out on 4th aug afternoon, i'd bleeding... Non stop bleeding... Likes period...
5th - went to KMC... Failed to meet dr suraya as she had been in OT until..not sure... Cause had to be in Kertih at 5 for my children... So i went back at 4
6th - went to KMC again... Meet dr suraya at 10.30..... Briefed her... Scanned... And she said... "Look likes there is nothing... No sac... Luar rahim pun tiada apa2... " so.... Amek darah (starting of my decreasing number of blood ;p)..
See her back at 12... The result: my hcg is 200++... So i am pregnant!but i'd still bleeding!!!
Confuseeeeedddd...
Next thing was... Another blood sample... In another 2 days....
7th - worked as usual.... Drived back to bangi...
*still hoping for good news....but....terimajugekalaubukanrezeki....
8th - went to Annur.... Brief dr fatimah.... Scanned.... And blood sample.... The best thing was.... MC for 7 days!!!! Hoyeay!! No training!!! Another yeaayy!!!
*still bleeding like period...
11th - result hcg: 140 (still high).... Should be less than 1...
Dr fatimah said... "Hcg berkurangan.... My advice is kite buat DNC"
Saye.... Atr redha dan pasrah menerima dgn tenang.... Sbb mmg dh agak sbb still bleeding....
"But let me scan you first.. Hcg still tinggi means maybe ade clogging.."
Scanned.......
"Looks clean.... Sy xnmpk clogging.... I dont want to go for dnc... Amek darah ok?"
Saya? Mestila saya yang menurut perintah... Lgpun... Of course happy dont have to go for dnc! :)
So another blood been taken....
But still.... Googled about aborted without dnc.... Some people experience about the same and alhamdulillah.. Everything seems fine...
To Cut story short....
13th.... Hcg: 40
18th... Hcg: 4
26th... Hcg: as below.....
So... On 29th... Meet dr fatimah again... Show her the result.... She smiled and said "alhamdulillah...... Pentingnye monitor hcg ni sbb kalo still tinggi after weeks, another check up kena buat... Might be ade perkara lain plak" nauzubillah...
"Ok.. Alhamdulliah.. So xperlu jumpa saya lagi lepas ni"
Me: eh..kena jumpe doktor untuk yg ke empat plak :p
:))
Saya menerima segalanya... Mungkin bukn rezeki.. Mungkin juga kami diberi peluang spy duduk bersama dlu... (Kan skrg sorg bangi, 4 org kertih...) ye kami masih berjauhan... Dh masuk 9 bulan 😔😔😔😔
-Posted using BlogPress from my iPad
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)